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three things that have had significant impact on my life, my outlook, and my well-being:

as i mentioned in my last post, i did not get the job in the minneapolis area. i had interviewed for a student services position that would have been a great fit for me. obviously, they did not think i was nearly as good a fit as i thought i was. so as a result, my life has moved towards chaotic. my roommate and i had put in our two months notice on our apartment with the anticipation that i would be moving out of fargo in the near future. this job seemed like that ticket out. so as of right now, i am living in the basement of a house with a family from my church. the majority of my stuff is locked up in a storage unit. and life is up in the air. obviously, i still have my current job. but i’m now at a point where i have to re-evaluate what is next. do i continue to look for jobs in minneapolis and see this merely as a set-back? or do i settle in to fargo again and consider the door closed on minneapolis for now? it has never been that i am dying to leave fargo, or that i’m desperate to move to minneapolis.  but their has likely never been a better time for me to make that kind of change.  i think it’s a matter of trust at this point.

the day i got the news about the job, life saw another twist thrown my way.  my mom called to let me know that my dad had just called her.  he wanted my phone number so that he could give me some information about someone he knows in minneapolis.  over the course of the next couple of days, he probably called me 10 times.  all while i was at work.  i have not called him back yet.  the timing is bad and i want to go into my first conversation with him with a clear head and a calm spirit.  those are two things that do not describe me at this point in my life.

not long ago.  right around the time of my last full post.  i went on a date.  a girl that i have long been friends with.  and we had a great time.  and there will likely be more dates.  or at least i hope.

bored and extremely dangerous
i feel really disconnected from life right now.  i’m living a lot further away from downtown.  i don’t talk to certain friends as much right now.  i feel unplugged.

i have received and interesting mix of reactions to what was written in the post titled “not on rex manning day.”  most recently, a very genuine thank you.  certainly not a reaction i ever expected to receive.

notre dame is brutal this year.  they are very young and should get better in the coming years.  but they seem destined to never be better than 10-2 or 9-3 even in their best years.  in their not so good years, 4-8 seems pretty reasonable.

the great temptation right now is to be relevant.   to have the world accept and appreciate and understand.  to turn stones into bread and feed the hungry (myself included).  i try so hard to impress the world.  to provide for myself.  perhaps irrelevance is the key.  whatever that may look like.

and last night i saw my son crawl for the first time.  and the smile on my face reflected the explosion in my heart.  and i have reason.