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i have returned from my hiatus. it didn’t last a full 24 hours. but from 2:30 yesterday until 10:30 this morning i was essentially secluded. the only people i talked to were people who worked at a couple of places i stopped. other than that it was just me. i did break down at one point and watch a little television. it was a strange experience. i went into it not knowing what i was going to do and not knowing what to expect. there were things i did and tried that i won’t do the next time. but there are things i did and tried that i will definitely do again. like turning off my cell phone. i did officially go 24 hours with out talking on it and if i don’t receive any in the next 2 hours, it will be 24 without a text message.
the other thing that was really good was just sitting down and reading my Bible. the truth is, i don’t read it much. and when i do i generally have an agenda. i usually go to it when i am questioning certain ideas and i want specific answers. instead, i just sat down and started at a point and i read until i was to another point. i wasn’t looking for any justification to my viewpoints, i wasn’t looking for answers or a-ha’s. i just read and it was good.
i realized i haven’t been giving much time to just hanging out with Jesus. there were times were i just desperately wanted to be distracted. it’s pretty common for me, when i am hanging out with someone, to want distractions at times. like newspapers, or a television in the background to divide my attention. i’m not sure why, i guess i’m just not good at focusing on a single person like that right now. so when i was in this situation, trying to hang out with Jesus, whom i really hadn’t hung out with in this type of context for this long of a period…. i needed to be distracted. hence the giving in to turning on the tv. i think it will be good if i start setting aside some short periods to spend with Him. a couple times a week to begin with. work on some intimacy issues and some other things as well.
all in all, i’m glad i did this. it didn’t blow my mind or change anything drastically. just made me aware of somethings. i got good rest and i stepped away from the stresses of life, not to pretend that they exist, but to disengage from them for a short period. but it’s good to be back.
