acts.1.eight

strangely enough, the most prominent story i saw and heard about today was the death of anna nicole smith. i am especially baffled by the anna nicole smith thing. i have nothing against her, but what did she do? playboy? trim-spa? reality show? at one point today when i looked, she was the top story on the websites for cnn, msnbc, and fox news. it was high on the page for the fargo forum most of the day. i guess i have just under estimated the impact of anna nicole on the collective minds of our world. strange.

trim-spa, baby. r.i.p. anna nicole.

to patiently still be craving
i have a 3 day weekend. as of tonight, i don’t work again until 1 pm on monday. that seems like such a long time. originally, i had planned on going to minneapolis. then i contemplated a trek across the state to my mom’s home. now, i’m leaning heavily towards not going anywhere. i am having breakfast with stan in the morning. from there, i am not sure what will happen. but i am thinking i will disappear for 24 hours at some point. turn off my phone. put away the computer. all of that. just chill. escape. spend time with Jesus. some other things i’d like to accomplish this weekend:

• go to the gym, hopefully twice
• do my laundry
• clean around the apartment, especially my room
• have coffee with a friend or two
• read
• write in my hand written journal
• sleep

so that’s my plan. i am looking forward to a chilled out weekend. call me for coffee if you are around. leave me a message if my phone is off. i will check my messages a couple of times during my 24 hours, in case there are any emergencies.

i miss my family. not just my mom and my siblings, or my grandparents and cousins. but my non-blood family too. i have family all over the world and i miss them. my sisters in california and missouri, in scotland and south fargo. my brothers in seattle and minneapolis, france and peoria. there are times that i wish everyone i knew could live in one place. but that’s no good. i do not even see all the people that live in fargo right now. there is only so much time in each day to share with people. it is a drag to have to pick and choose who gets what. do i spend time on the phone at the expense of coffee with a friend? do i take a weekend trip to crosby or a weekend trip to minneapolis? why can’t you all live here? why can’t i see you all everyday?

lately i have not even been taking advantage of the time i do have. i have been coming home at night a lot more after work. i have been at the raven less. it is good at times, but i do miss people.

i don’t have much too say these days. i will be back with more soon.